Words...too tangled in my brain?

It's been awhile since I've put something out there but the oddest thing has happened. Odd even for me. I'm a writer. It's a part of me...a part of who I am. Yet lately, I've had so many emotions, thoughts, and feelings that I just can't seem to put into words. It's like they are tangled up in my heart and in my brain and I just can't express them. You must understand that for someone who can usually put pen to paper rather easily, this is outrageously frustrating!

I can feel them, taste them, nearly touch them - they are thumping from within so hard. However, when I try to write them down, I feel inept. The words I write seem too simple. Not nearly descriptive enough to give them credit. I'm frustrated enough at myself and my ability that it weighs like a stone in my chest.

Why? Why am I having such difficulty? I asked a good friend that same question. In return, she repeated it back to me as if hearing it phrased in her voice would allow me to provide an answer. Not so much. Epic fail...still no idea. All I can think is that they are so new - so foreign - to me that I simply cannot describe them. Did I mention how frustrating this is?

You know that feeling you get when you reach your hand into an unexpected spider web (without the spider)? If you try to describe it, what do you get? Try it right now. You get these words that just don't do it justice. It's nearly indescribable. It's sticky, yet silky. Gross, yet weird. I could go on but you get the idea. That's what this is like for me. So tangled, so intense, so...yeah...that I just can't put them on paper. Ugh. Ugh. Double ugh!